A done deal...

Some people will question why,some people might have assumed , some people hoped, others helped pray for divine inspiration, a few will cry, some will cheer, perhaps a chuckle will be heard....but most importantly, it is done. The decision which path the McEwan family will take has been chosen. There are still unknowns in the equation (which was going to be the case, either way). I think this was quite possibly the HARDEST decision of our lives, thus far. When I considered marrying Gavin...piece of cake ...who wouldn't fall for him. I received almost immediate confirmation of the correct choice. When we had to decide between Chicago and NY for med school...it was hard...but it was a choice of two confirmed acceptances, which was much easier. We knew there was no risk involved. The choice to have children was actually made when I was 7 and just wanted to be a mother...for my whole life....an occasional 2nd choice offer came along...but have never regretted my choice to be a stay at home mom. Many other smaller choices we have made...seem dull in comparison. I can talk for hours about all that went into making this choice...all the pros and cons on both sides...why we flip-flopped decisions almost daily. And in the end...it comes down to faith. Not blind faith...but faith that our Heavenly Father has watched over us in each little and big decision we have made all the years of our lives and most importantly over the 10 years of us being together. We don't know everything for sure...but on this day where our path of history was forever decided...mostly what I feel is blessed to know we are loved, heard and never abandoned. We are so grateful to so many good friends and family who have been essential in this choice...who knew how hard it has been...and gave love and support...and bountiful information. I am stunned at the plethera of knowledge some have in those brains. I am grateful for kind words of encouragement when all seemed lost. Because who would have known we would have been given so much to choose from...truly a blessing (and maybe a curse too=))


I already know Gavin is going to roll his eyes and say this is far too long...but I wanted to make sure I didn't leave anything unsaid...so I will let THIS speak for itself:



Ok...maybe just a few words (first...who can name the beach?) Second...friends in Corpus...I cried this morning to think of leaving here (surprising, I know!)..its a year sooner than we had planned all along. Its as much a surprise to us as it is to you. To our friends in SoCal...we're coming home!! Its amazing to think..and a bit scary too. I guess its that curse of San Diego...once you grow up there...its hard to stay away for too long!

I guess we will never know what would have happened in the civilain match....the deadline for our rank list has passed and we did not turn one in...for obvious reasons. Even though its unfortunate to have had to spend the money and time to interview at all those spots...I chalk it up to one of those necessary evils in life. You couldn't not do it...but in the end, we had to decide against it. It was certainly not a waste, though. Gavin learned a lot. And he learned what an amazing program NMCSD Ophtho really is...after seen what else is out there. We are very thankful!